Danerbean+Katertot: BFFs

dear dana,
we could call your birthday party a...."birthday get-together." it sounds much less childish, right? i don't know if steve's coming. i'll be sure to ask him...or atleast i'll try to remember to ask him. who is coming to your birthday?
i don't know how my midterms week looks like, but i'm probably spending most of it with steve. sorry :[ cuz we'll have the house to ourselves all week since danny stays all day, and steve has almost no tests.
me and jess have both read go ask alice. let me know if you like it, cuz we really didn't. it was slow, and...uninteresting.
so as much as i hate getting up at 5:30 for school every day, i hate weekends even more. i don't fare well without steve around, and i feel lost without him. it makes me wish we were older so i could see him everyday, instead of just school days and whenever his dad can bring him over here. i want to see him, cuz i get lonely without him, and i know he's stressed out right now, probably partly due to the fact that he left his backpack here on friday. :[
so yeah...i hate weekends cuz i never get to see him. they're miserable and stupid. and i'm just not even in the mood to be with anyone but him, and he's the farthest person away from me. i hate being in bad moods. dillon used to put me in these moods, and then he'd be the only person i wanted to see, which would make it worse because i always knew it wouldn't happen.
i don't know if i've already told you, but i'm over dillon. sure, i still hold a little anger in me towards him, and sure, i still care about him. but when i'm upset, he's no longer the first person i want to talk to. i no longer use his hoodie as a security blanket, or read over those silly letters we once wrote back and forth, or the old IMs i had saved. i'm over him, as much as i can be. i confirmed it the other night, cuz i looked at a picture of him and kristen. and i didn't get a feeling of "god, i need him" when i looked at him or "god, i wish i was her" when i looked at her. i looked at them together, and i was happy for him. i'm proud of myself for it. i finally got over it, and steve is mostly to thank for it.

-caty