dear dana,
that's a narwhal. and i love narwhals because they're the unicorn of the sea. thank you for the narwhal. i hump you.
i think i lied about not wanting to ride in a car with you. when your mommy takes you driving, i think you should take me with you so i can see you drive and scream in the backseat. i bet you're a really good driver. unlike me, who will be a terrible driver. because i spend so much of my time playing grand theft auto, ya know.
actually, i had a dream like last week or something. where i had a car and i was driving it but i wasn't supposed to be so i kinda stole it, but i didn't feel bad about it. i was just thinking "hey, what am i gonna do when i get home? i'm gonna fucking get arrested, aren't i?" and i was driving like i was in grand theft auto, minus the running into other cars and running people over. but i was weaving between cars-quite deftly if i do say so myself, and running red lights and speeding. it was awesome. that's how you should drive.

♥,
caty

dear caty,
this is for you.

love,

dana

dear caty,
im glad you and steve at least arent fighting anymore. hopefully tonight will be fun for you both. you should save me a cookie :p haha.
my week has been good... i dont really remember monday or tuesday. wednesday i got my permit which i was afraid i was gonna fail the test. it is easy... not as easy as some people make it seem, but still easy. i got 1 question wrong but you're allowed to get like 5 wrong so i did good haha. i dont actually have the thingy yet... they're going to mail it to me.
yesterday i drove for the first time! i was nervous haha. lauren was in the back seat and alan was in the passenger seat. they were both helping me and telling me what to do. i was surprised at how nice alan was being towards me. i went in circles in a big parking lot and i went around a building and rubbed up against a snow bank >.< and i parked in a parking space near a car and i backed out. they both said i did good. so im happy :]
today im supposed to go to this teddi dance for love thing with mel but she said her mom wont let her go... so idk if i can go. if i dont i might go to jessicas because she told me to lol. and the rest of my weekend... no plans. haha. yeahh and this week off will be funn!

-dana

dear dana,
wednesday sure. pssh pssh. but who goes shopping on a tuesdayyy?! cool bosses like us. yeah :D
so this week has been a long week. i didn't like it much. i'm sure you don't feel the same way :p since you got to drive, which is awesome and terrifying to me.
me and steve didn't stop fighting until wednesday and we still haven't gotten to fully resolve everything because yesterday we were bombarded by 4 boys insisting that we play apples to apples with them. unbeknownst to them, we played as a team....and still lost to danny. but he's coming over tonight after hack club, and we're probably gonna talk and make some oatmeal cookies and have a...hopefully pleasant night.
before wednesday, i had to live through tuesday which was a bad day. one of those days where i'm telepathically screaming at dillon to "call me RIGHT NOW or get online or SOMETHING!" and he did. which actually made my night even crazier, and it's been on my mind since then and has only momentarily gone away from time to time.
so how was your week?

-catyyyy

dear caty,
steve sucks and should be kicked for being a jerk to you. thats what you said i should say :] so i took your advice and told you! haha but you guys are great together and need to stop fighting. i dont wanna see you unhappy.
anywho we should have bestie time sometime next week. we need to go mallin. and i mean taco bell eating, smoothie drinking, window shopping, flirting, good time mallin. maybe it'd cheer you up a bit. i dont have much money but it'll do for tacos and smoothies.we should do it on like wednesday or something... because wednesday is oh so very random. like who goes shopping on wednesdays? haha.
so yeahh. i hump youu! and i hope you get happpppy. :]

-dana

dear dana,
my fake-happy ended on friday. me and sophie had plans for a sleepover, that still happened. but before that we went out for pizza with everyone. and me and steve got into a fight. about how he doesn't tell me anything that goes on in his life, but while we were still at school, i was talking to danny and i look over, and he's like...whispering in sophie's ear, and i'm like "what's up?" and he's like "oh, nothing." all shady-like. so i got mad, and i was like "you and me need to talk sometime today." and he goes "about what?" and i'm like "you."
so that resulted in a huge silent(we were passing notes so no one else would know we were fighting. they figured it out cuz we wouldn't speak or touch anyway.) fight, about how he never tells me shit and offers up all sorts of information to other girls. and about how i accuse him of being a flirt so he can hardly even talk to any girls, and everyone's mad at him, like his dad and sara. and i act the same way with danny as he does with all of his friends, but then he's the flirt. and i was like, fuck it and went to the bathroom and broke down into tears and wanted to kick a sink.
then i pulled him into the hallway and tried to talk with him, and we pretty much resolved nothing cuz he still didn't tell me what was going on earlier. all he said was that he didn't want to lose me, and would talk to me in the future.
and then he messaged me later in the night while i was at sophie's, sayin "today made for an interesting day :p" and i was like uh....no, today made for a fucking sucky day. and i messaged back saying "how so?" and that's all. and he's been online and never messaged me back or anything.
so that was pretty much the theme of my weekend.

-caty

dear caty,
i know ill find someone who is good to me and worth my time. and yes chandler did that with me. its really annoying. and melissa was the second girl he liked that he started texting. ashley was the first.
i like your suggestions on what to do to 9th graders when they're mean. hahah i like the "swallow a book" one. i think im gonna try that! *goes up to 9th grader with book* "swallow this! now!" hehe. oh and the kicking in the shin reminded me, today i was walking and zoe came up behind me and kicked me in the calf... it wasnt a mean kick but i was like whatt? and she was like "i was trying to kick you in the butt but i missed" im like "how do you miss that much?!" haha she said she was afraid she would have fallen.
im glad you've been happy even if its only fake happy. to me, fake happy is better than no happy. its good you have new friends too. floor hockey is fun. i just got done with it before midterms. im doing volleyball now. and your are project sounds fun too. i cant exactly see what you described lol but im sure its gonna be awesome. in my art class we are starting uhh... like masks. we're gonna put plaster or something like that (what they use to make casts) over our faces and they will take the shape of our faces. and we have to decorate them to show the influence of a famous artist. it'll be cool.
you got some really good grades. especially sense you've been out of school for so long. id be really happy to have your grades. i hope you get above 90 on all your finals! ill bake you something if you do :]. and i dont know why i do bad at science. i think its actually just i do bad on exams. like if i take a test in class ill do really good on it, even if its science. but as soon as its a big exam i jusy do bad. like even algebra... ive taken it for 3 years and i only got an 84. so idk. but whatevs.

-danaa.

dear dana,
it's smart that you're not gonna pursue zhamir. you'll find someone who's worth it eventually, though. chandler always has to make things awkward like that. didn't he do the same thing with you? "i'm gonna ask you out on __ day. and i'm gonna kiss you on __ day." i'm sorry you're jealous though. is she the one he liked before? or was that someone else and this was the second girl he liked and started texting? i can't remember names cuz chandler's life9th graders are mean. next time someone says something about you, you should kick them in the shin. or threaten to make them swallow a book. or beat them with a hockey stick. :D
i'm sorry you've been not-happy among your happy. this week, i've actually been happy. it's kind of a fake-happy, and i know i'm faking it, but it only has to last till tomorrow so i'll take it for now. i've been having good days though. i'm making new friends, and i'm in floor hockey with them in gym, which is amazingly fun. and there's this new project in art that's like...a collage of a landscape/cityscape. and i'm doing mine like an exterior/interior thing. an apartment building on one side, and the back of one on the other side, with huge windows looking into 3 apartments. it's gonna be awesome.
i got my grades on monday. global: 87. spanish: 89. living environment: 86. english: 97. and algebra: 89. :D i'm proud of myself for my grades. but i want over 90s on all my finals. and why do you always do so bad at science? >.<

-catyy

dear caty,
im not sure what eric meant. i just know he called it gay. but anywho... i am not going to pursue my liking of zhamir. i've just lost interest. and you are soo right about boys saying they've changed when they really havnt. and thanks for supporting me whatever i decide. that means a lot to me because a lot of the time people are against what i do. so its nice to have support.
chandler and melissa are going to go out on friday. i think its stupid that they made a date for when hes gonna ask her out but its chandler and hes stupid like that. i think im a little jealous. or something. idk. like me and chandler dont talk very often which has made me think of him less often and he uhh... deactivated his facebook so i dont see him on there either. i think that is great and is helping me get over him because lets face it, im not gonna get over him over night... even though its already been a while. but thats not the point. last week i was happy and i decided that i didnt want to be jealous of chandler, and i didnt want him to be jealous of me if i got a boyfriend. which i think i a good step for me. i really do think it;; be awkward though but whatevs, ill get used to it i guess.
i am now in a 9th grade IB computer programming class with zoe and hakiere and delmar and some of my other lovely freshmen, no chandler or zhamir though. ive been in the class for 2 days now. i havnt done anything yet though because my computer wasnt working haha. but um this kid liam, little white boy from sota, he thought i was zoe and said something and then he was like oh you're dana. and then he said sorry zoe i didnt mean to insult you like that, or something along those lines. im like really? grow up. other then him im liking the class.
i understand what you're saying about the seesaw thingy. thats kinda how i am. but i decided that the happy over rules the non happy. although, ive cried a lot in the past 2 weeks... but im happy..? does that even make sense!? i dont see how it does... but thats how i am. i think ive just been holding in a lot of emotion from the past months and its just coming out. because i keep my feelings in until im alone... which isnt a great thing to do but im not a great talker about that kinda stuff.
but anywho i hope you get your seesaw up so you can be happy! happy is good. oh! did you get any of your midterm grades? in chem i got a 57 after the curve >.< in english i got a 82. in global i got a 85. in math i got a 84. in spanish i got a 65... which is passing at least. and in computers i got a 92. so im happy with most of my grades. okk bye.

-dana