Danerbean+Katertot: BFFs

dear caty,
im not sure what eric meant. i just know he called it gay. but anywho... i am not going to pursue my liking of zhamir. i've just lost interest. and you are soo right about boys saying they've changed when they really havnt. and thanks for supporting me whatever i decide. that means a lot to me because a lot of the time people are against what i do. so its nice to have support.
chandler and melissa are going to go out on friday. i think its stupid that they made a date for when hes gonna ask her out but its chandler and hes stupid like that. i think im a little jealous. or something. idk. like me and chandler dont talk very often which has made me think of him less often and he uhh... deactivated his facebook so i dont see him on there either. i think that is great and is helping me get over him because lets face it, im not gonna get over him over night... even though its already been a while. but thats not the point. last week i was happy and i decided that i didnt want to be jealous of chandler, and i didnt want him to be jealous of me if i got a boyfriend. which i think i a good step for me. i really do think it;; be awkward though but whatevs, ill get used to it i guess.
i am now in a 9th grade IB computer programming class with zoe and hakiere and delmar and some of my other lovely freshmen, no chandler or zhamir though. ive been in the class for 2 days now. i havnt done anything yet though because my computer wasnt working haha. but um this kid liam, little white boy from sota, he thought i was zoe and said something and then he was like oh you're dana. and then he said sorry zoe i didnt mean to insult you like that, or something along those lines. im like really? grow up. other then him im liking the class.
i understand what you're saying about the seesaw thingy. thats kinda how i am. but i decided that the happy over rules the non happy. although, ive cried a lot in the past 2 weeks... but im happy..? does that even make sense!? i dont see how it does... but thats how i am. i think ive just been holding in a lot of emotion from the past months and its just coming out. because i keep my feelings in until im alone... which isnt a great thing to do but im not a great talker about that kinda stuff.
but anywho i hope you get your seesaw up so you can be happy! happy is good. oh! did you get any of your midterm grades? in chem i got a 57 after the curve >.< in english i got a 82. in global i got a 85. in math i got a 84. in spanish i got a 65... which is passing at least. and in computers i got a 92. so im happy with most of my grades. okk bye.

-dana