we just need to figure our stupid brains out

dear dana,
kelly's right. so is everyone else. you should breakup with chandler. he's a shady lying jerk. it's very simple. you'll dump him and marry mario. even though he's 18 and probably into those tiny preppy girls who flip their (naturally) blond hair around and offer him blowjobs. but, maybe that's why he talked to you. because he thought you were amazing and different than the skanky girls who try to get with him that he wanted to be with you....or maybe he was aiming for me and i just wouldn't look at him... just kidding. he was totally talking to us just because of you. having a hott college guy for a boyfriend will make you so popular.
i'm going to be self-centered now. and talk about my own guy issues. what do you think i should do? i love dillon(of course) but is it really worth my time to wait for him forever and ever when he's never going to see me? and it really creeps me out that i was like, jealous of all the trevor and zoe shit. wtf is that? what does that even mean? that i got jealous. and i had this dream, where me and trevor were in the dining room with gma. and he had his arms around my neck from behind and was kissing my cheek. and we were talking with gma and he asked what i ate and gma said "nothing," joking. and he gave me this look and mouthed "that again? not right now, caty." which is a stupid move on dream-him part, because real him doesn't even know about that. what do you interpret that dream as? i can't figure it out.
so, what do you think i should do? do you think i should take more initiative to get with dillon, and kick trevor's sorry ass out of my life? or get together with trevor and give up on dillon? or give up on boys all together until my noah finally surfaces?