i went to the lilac festival. i had fun. i got $2 for rolling down a hill there. good times. it was fun because i wasnt alone. i had kelly with me. shes funny. we'd be walking and she would randomly tap someone on the shoulder and they would look around and stuff. i laughed a lott. we didnt have enough money for all of us to get dindin... so my daddy ate the rest of kelly and lisas food which was plenty. im not a big fan of lilacs. im not a big fan of any flower though.
i think i should be scene haha. i'd be a really cool scene. i dont think i could pull it off though. so i wont try. i cant wait till next year. im kinda nervous because ill be going to school with people i havnt seen in forever and i wont know the building at all! it should be fun though.
my teeth dont hurt as much now. but i think im growing in a molar or something. in the one spot in the back of my mouth it feels like the gum is slowing ripping open so thats my guess. im not sure though.
... caty, something is wrong with me. i'm not PMSing but im being like emotional or something. idk. and its ugh. i dont like chandler. and im like trying to piss him off on purpose. and i cant help it. its like, i dont like him, but i want him to like me. i dont want him to like other people. i dont want him to hug or kiss other people. i dont want him being besties with other people. but i think thats mad selfish of me. so im letting it all happen. im letting you guys be besties. im letting him hang out with us because id feel bad if i made it so he couldnt. even though i so badly wanna say no i dont want him there, just to piss him off. but that would be mean. im not mad at him or anything. and i dont understand this at all. its so confusing. maybe its because i dont like him, but i love him and dont want to picture him with someone else, being happy with someone else. blahh im rambling on about stupid stuff.
im a stupid little girl. i need helppp.
Forever ++ Always,
Dana
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