Danerbean+Katertot: BFFs

dear caty,
oh goodness, i kinda have a lot to tell you. oh where to start... ok i guess ill start with zoe.
i know this is none of my or your business but i need to tell someone and you're the only one i can think of to tell who doesnt know zoe like that. so she went to a snoop dog concert with her friend amanda and amandas bf jake. i guess jake thinks its hot for two girls to make out... so zoe and amanda made out. also i guess one of amandas friends is a dealer so zoe also smoked pot. she texted me at first not telling me what she did and she said "it was bad, but fun!" and im just like disappointed in her. like shes not good with peer pressure at all. and i think amandas a bad influence on zoe. but zoe would never listen to me if i told her that. she thinks im just a party pooper i guess. like when she went out with zak. and she was gonna have sex with him after dating for like 3 months. (they also hadnt known eachother that long). i want to be friends with her but if she starts doing stupid shit, i just cant deal with all that.
ok moving on to the boy situation. i know i like a lot of boys... im sorry lol. so i found out the other day that aaron used to like me too! but he likes someone else now. but delmar is lovely. i love him! but chandler told me that zoes friends told him i liked him... so i asked zoe and she said that they were saying that i flirt with delmar and stuff so then they guessed that i liked him and i guess zoe made a face and so they believed i did and told him. after hearing that i could feel my face heating up. i heard that when your face heats up, you're blushing... so i might have been blushing... idk. but anywhoo... so i felt weird talking to delmar so i looked at him a few times but didnt say anything. and then i left.
and i told zoe how aaron used to like me and she said "why do all these guys like youu! and none like me." and i didnt even realize that and i said "really? well people like you more as a friend" and she said "thats because you talk about everyone" and i asked who and she said cheyenne and andral (which are two of her school friends) and the paragraph above shows why i dont like them and would talk about them. they talk about me. like seriously zoe just doesnt know how to pick friends. they're all bad influences on her and i dont wanna sound like the "im a virgin and never smoked and am innocent" type but its what i am. it doesnt make me uncool or anything. i dont see why people have to be so stupid.
this is long. sorry. just had a lot on my mind.

-dana