Danerbean+Katertot: BFFs

dear caty,
im hurting. ive never felt this way before and i hate it. i cant stop crying. caty if i could go back and change everything i would. i dont know what to do. im afraid whats done cant be fixed and thats not what i want at all. and the worst part is that i caused all this. its not like hes an asshole who broke my heart. i broke his and mine in the process. i started writing down everything in a letter to him. idk if ill actually give it to him but writing it down makes me feel better. or at least it stops the tears for a while. i just feel like ive made the worst mistake of my life. i love him. i went to seabreeze today and couldnt stop thinking of him and how i wished he was there with me like last time. this is so hard, caty. working is the only thing to keep him off my mind. ive been working a lot lately. i worked 11 hours the other day. but it helps because i wont cry at work. home is a different story. im sorry for dumping all this on you. im not even gonna tell you i wrote this. youll see it eventually. hopefully things will be better by then...
-dana