dear caty,
yes i got the message on facebook but i have yet to ask my mom. im sure she'll say i can go though. and i sorta wish you werent having a party because... wait for it... i was gonna throw you a surprise party! i had it all planned out and eveything. but no caty wants to throw her own party :[ so whatevs! lol.
and is danny really acting that way? cuz i cant picture him acting like that but thats probably because i hardly know him. but he doesnt seem like he would do that. why is her so jerkishh?! and im glad you're excited! you should be, its your birthday! haha my friend was gonna shoot me yesterday cuz i said "my birthday is in exactly 9 months!" lmao.
hahahah the cupcake thing sounds awesome! i cant waitt! proof that im a genius? howw? lol. and it took me a while to get how 16 school is symbolism but then i got it! cuz its 16 school and you're turning 16. haha. see i am a genius!
i am good! like always. i was gonna tell you how my break went but you can just read my blog if you havnt already. anywhooo... i dont wanna go out with delmar or anything anymore because i hung out with aaron so much over break i started liking him more. and he did too. and im like 99.9% sure hes gonna ask me out tomorrow and my response will be yes. lol. so um yeahh lifes good.  hope it is for you as well. :]

i hump youu!
-dana

dear dana,

my birthday is on sunday! i'm really excited. i'm not usually so excited for birthdays, but maybe it's just because it's my sixteenth. i couldn't decide if i wanted a party or anything. first, i did. then, i didn't. then i wanted to have a sleepover with a bunch of girls. then, i decided i wouldn't be able to handle a bunch of girls all night. and then, i decided to just have my favorite people over. you, jess, danny and steve. i don't know if you saw the message yet(but you should have!) and i think you should definitely come over, duhh. and you should definitely bring apples to apples with you.

i know steve will come over, and i know jess is coming over. but i don't think danny wants to :/ steve told him i wanted him to come over and he groaned and was all exasperated about it. so i'm pretty sure he just thinks he's too good to hang out with me, even for my birthday. but whatever, i'm not going to let him being a jerk put a damper on the fact that i'm really excited.

oh, and also....my mom's making cupcakes. so we're gonna go behind 16 school(symbolism!) and throw cupcakes at the door and play the game they did on iCarly! :D proof that you're a genius.

how are you, oh dana one?

i hump youuuu

-caty

dear caty,
it would have been more fun if i thought we were taking a bus to your house and then we end up somewhere where i dont know where i am and im all "where the fuck are we?!" hahah but this works too. it sounds uber fun :]
i cant wait!

-dana

dear dana,

so tomorrow...me and jess have articulated a plan. you and me, after the dos rally and dance, are going to catch a bus to northstar, and go to the funn event they're having. with food and games and a speaker and jess sucking at softball. and then the three of us are going to have a slumber party. sounds like a plan, right? right. just thought you should know.

-caty

dear caty,
i remember that commercials. i like those commercials. i dont see them much anymore. and yes i remember the hoodie and i think us 3 should get together and make them together! itd be bestie above the influence bonding time!
i dont think anything will happen with delmar. i went on his facebook page to write him a message and i saw him talking to this girl. and they were talking about how this other girl is taking to delmar to prom at her school. and it says hes in a relationship but i wasnt sure if that was just cuz he didnt change it or idk. so i messaged him saying "i heard people told you stuff today in your french class. so what did anyone tell you?" and no response so far. but now that i found out aaron used to like me... it kinda makes me still like him. like because it means i do have a chance. and i dont think im really being fickle... im just going with what i can get. if i like a guy but he doesnt like me, why stay stuck on him? and yeah you're only 15 and you've had 3 serious relationships. im not sure if id like that or not though because since you're so young you might be heart broken more... which im pretty sure you have been... and thats not good. but you learn from it so idkk. lol. and when me and your brother were just friends i just really liked talking to him. idk why but whenever i texted him no matter how i was feeling, i would just get happy. and he wasnt like chandler where flirting was just being alll extra sweet. he was like me where flirting was being mean in a nice way. like "haha you're soo lame." and stuff like that. im not sure if its weird for me to talk to you about your brother like that and if it is we dont have to talk about him ever again lol.
now onto you! im not a great talker... well i dont think i am. im not good about confronting people. i have two ideas in my  head. 1, you could talk to him. just tell him how you feel and make him feel bad. tell him you miss him and it hurts you to not be with him more. or 2, play his game. tell him you "might" be able to go somewhere and then do something else. make him feel how you feel. some people might see choice 2 as bad but in my mind its not. its a way to show him just how you're feeling. so you can choose one of those or do something else. i hope things work out though.

-dana

dear dana,

you shouldn't feel like a loser. that's why i wanted to make those hoodies for you me and jess. remember the above the influence ones? cuz there's the commercial, where the guys got this huge mountain of t-shirts on and they all say things on them, like...well, i don't remember now. but the last one just said something like "free." and he put his hoodie on and put the hood up and it had the arrow in a circle symbol on the back of it. and i wanted to make us those hoodies. i think i will. because with all the stuff we're starting to be surrounded by more and more, we need the reminder i think. wow, that was a huge rambling. anyway, i'm sorry about what's going down with zoe. it sucks :/

that makes sense that you try to pursue everyone atleast a little bit to make sure that you don't miss out on an opportunity. so good luck with delmar, but if it doesn't work out, don't worry. you'll find someone good for you eventually. i think i've either been a lot luckier in love than most people, or i just fall for people harder than most people. cuz i've had three serious relationships, and that's a lot for kids our age. so...not that i like hearing good things about my brother cuz ya know...he's my brother, but what did you see in him?

i hope for your sake that zoe is straight :p and yeah, i saw that one. but that wasn't necessarily from the pot she smoked, the pot just made her forget to take her insulin or something like that cuz she was so out of it. but i know what you mean none the less. and i addressed that up there. ^^^

so on to caty (ahhh, being conceited rocks.) i'm having steve issues again :/ actually, the same steve issues. where he doesn't spend enough time with me and i'm so dependent on him that it tears me up and makes me fall apart. and he's started blowing me off, except i can't even call it that cuz he makes vague half-plans like "i'll try to come over tomorrow night and stay the night" or "maybe i'll have my parents drop me off after my tennis match" and then never comes over. and....ughhh. it's driving me insane. i know i need to talk to him, but i'm bad at confronting him. do you think there's any other way i could handle this?

-caty

dear caty,
i hump you. and when i knew zoe for the past 3 years i never would have expected her to be like this. its really ever sense she dated zak that shes changed. it makes me feel like a loser when a ton of people i know are doing this and that but im not just gonna do it to be the same. because thats stupid.
and im gonna message delmar on facebook asking what they said to him and does he believe it and stuff like that. im not a good talker in person. and i do like a bunch of guys... but its because i want to have a lot of feelings for someone. i want a relationship that will last a long time. but i dont have a clue who it'd be with. so if i happen to get a crush on a guy i try to see if it'll turn into anything. obviously nothing has so far except chandler who wasnt even that long termed. and i actually thought my relationship with your brother would have lasted longer but i was wrong.
and zoe isnt a lesbian... yet. shes straight. but she said she'd have a 3 some with amanda and someone else. but that doesnt make her a lesbian... idk. maybe if she gets no boyfriends she'll turn into one.
and i was watching degrassi, a new-er one. where emma is in college and she smoked pot and one of her friends passed out from it and was in the hospital. like i dont wanna end up like that. it isnt good for anyone.

dear dana,
so in english today, we interpretted this quote. it said that a young person's friends determine the type of person they are. i don't remember the exact quote. but see, if your friends do bad things like smoke pot and drink and have sex with people they barely know, eventually you'll give into peer pressure and become the same type of person. and since zoe hangs out with kids who do stupid shit like that, she does too and will turn into someone just like them.
that's why i stay away from people who smoke pot and stuff like that. i don't wanna be like that, and it makes me uncomfortable to really even be around. so i think it's understandable that you question your friendship with zoe because she's doing that stuff. you're not that bad type of kid, and that doesn't make you a party pooper. that makes you too smart and mature to do things that you know are bad for you.
so now that big mouth ninth graders have told delmar that you like him, do you know if he likes you? i think you should find that out. maybe i just think you like a lot of guys cuz i've been with the same one for about 5 months and i don't like anyone else. so it's a lot compared to how many different guys i like. but if you find someone you really like, i'm happy for you. i just think you're being silly and fickle with all these boys that you don't have any real feelings for. so they're probably not worth the time you're giving them. well maybe no one likes zoe cuz she's weird and wishes she were lady gaga. ya know...just sayin'. if i were a dude, i'd find that verrryyyyy unattractive. also! it doesn't surprise me that zoe madeout with a girl. didn't we always suspect that she was a lesbian? maybe she's just living up to her potential.
i agree that people are stupid. with all the pot smokers and drinkers and fighters. they're like "oh look at me, i'm so cool and mature" when in reality they're just fucking up their bodies and ruining things for themselves instead of being smart.

-caty

dear caty,
oh goodness, i kinda have a lot to tell you. oh where to start... ok i guess ill start with zoe.
i know this is none of my or your business but i need to tell someone and you're the only one i can think of to tell who doesnt know zoe like that. so she went to a snoop dog concert with her friend amanda and amandas bf jake. i guess jake thinks its hot for two girls to make out... so zoe and amanda made out. also i guess one of amandas friends is a dealer so zoe also smoked pot. she texted me at first not telling me what she did and she said "it was bad, but fun!" and im just like disappointed in her. like shes not good with peer pressure at all. and i think amandas a bad influence on zoe. but zoe would never listen to me if i told her that. she thinks im just a party pooper i guess. like when she went out with zak. and she was gonna have sex with him after dating for like 3 months. (they also hadnt known eachother that long). i want to be friends with her but if she starts doing stupid shit, i just cant deal with all that.
ok moving on to the boy situation. i know i like a lot of boys... im sorry lol. so i found out the other day that aaron used to like me too! but he likes someone else now. but delmar is lovely. i love him! but chandler told me that zoes friends told him i liked him... so i asked zoe and she said that they were saying that i flirt with delmar and stuff so then they guessed that i liked him and i guess zoe made a face and so they believed i did and told him. after hearing that i could feel my face heating up. i heard that when your face heats up, you're blushing... so i might have been blushing... idk. but anywhoo... so i felt weird talking to delmar so i looked at him a few times but didnt say anything. and then i left.
and i told zoe how aaron used to like me and she said "why do all these guys like youu! and none like me." and i didnt even realize that and i said "really? well people like you more as a friend" and she said "thats because you talk about everyone" and i asked who and she said cheyenne and andral (which are two of her school friends) and the paragraph above shows why i dont like them and would talk about them. they talk about me. like seriously zoe just doesnt know how to pick friends. they're all bad influences on her and i dont wanna sound like the "im a virgin and never smoked and am innocent" type but its what i am. it doesnt make me uncool or anything. i dont see why people have to be so stupid.
this is long. sorry. just had a lot on my mind.

-dana

dear dana,

well, delmar sounds like a lovely person. you like too many people though. and you're going to give me whiplash with all these people.

-caty

dear caty,
delmar is adorable. and hes soo funny. like you can ask anyone who knows him. and we got "married" last week so ever since we've been all couple-ish. like we're joking but i like it. i have 9th period with him and he blew me a kiss on friday. and then he hugged me and aaron, remember him, yeah well he hit me and so i was like "delmar, aaron hit me" and he came over and was like "did you just hit my woman?" haha yeahh. so does that answer the question?

dear dana,

why do you like delmar?

-caty

dear caty,
haha that soo could have happened! you never know with trees these days. well anywhoo... yeah id rather have jess be the one touching my boobs... unless the creepy guy was hot. then id prefer him haha.
sooo im giving delmar a note on monday right before i leave saying "i kinda sorta like you. just a little."  and im scurrrred. im not good with telling guys i like them... till after its over and im like oh that wasnt so hard. haha.

-dana

dear dana,

if her mom hit a tree or something, then it would obviously be her own fault. unless the tree was asking for it, or jumped in front of her of course. i see it happen all the time.

anyway, it was the other drivers fault. they were running a red when our light was still yellow. so it was their fault.

you'd probably get the gross old man who would touch your boobs while your strapped down...or jess, who would do the same thing.

-caty

dear caty,
ohh. that sounds pretty scary.im glad danny got in the way so you didnt get hurt too badly. whos fault was it? was it jess' moms fault or was it the other driver? you guys did hit another car right? she didnt just like drive into a tree or anything? lol andd i've never been in an ambulance eitherr. and the ladies sound funny. if i ever get into an accident and am taken in an ambulance i hope my people are funny and not some old gross mean people.

-dana

dear dana,

technically, it was a pretty bad accident. but none of us were badly hurt so that's good. but i would have gone through the windshield if danny hadn't made sure to land so that he stopped me. or atleast hit my head on the dashboard and probably gotten a concussion or something.

jess's mom was like, flipping out. cuz ya know, she's crazy. and even afterwards, the next day. she was yelling at jess "when you get back to school, don't tell anyone what happened. just say we got in an accident and it wasn't my fault. and don't tell anyone you and your friends weren't wearing seatbelts."

i was perfectly fine, cuz thanks to the adrenaline i didn't register that i hit my head until later. but i was only fine until steve was like "you're okay." and i'm like..."am i not okay? i feel okay." and danny gave me this look like i had 12 heads and steve just goes "don't say anything, danny." so they freaked me out and had me convinced that i had a huge gash on my head and there was blood gushing from it or something like that. i wanted to punch them when i found out it was only swollen. they made me think it was so much worse.

the ambulance ride was fun though. the lady-ambulance-doctor-person was cool. she was making jokes the whole time. and she asked me where i went to school, and i said east and the other girl in the with me goes "do i know you? i went to east." and i go "i don't know, i can't see you." and she's like "yeah, i can't see you either." and later, the lady asked me if steve was my boyfriend cuz he stayed with me. and i said yeah, and i guess he turned around cuz she goes "turn around. we're not talking about you." and i said "i love you" to him, and he said it back. and the lady goes to the driver "hey dean. we love you dean...oh ladies, i think we made him blush."

so that was fun.

and i'm not telling you how to make donuts.

-caty

dear caty,
ohmigosh! im assuming everyones ok sense you said they only have bruises and you have a black eye but ohmigod! i've never gotten into a car accident before so im not sure what to think or say. was it bad? were you scared? what happened? like explainn! dood if you guys died or something id like cry my eyes out! and also... explain how you make donuts. lol.
so im glad you're ok! byee

-dana

p.s. i like delmar.

dear dana,

so wednesday night, me, jess, steve and danny were going to this church thing.

and we got into a car accident.

i've got the black eye to prove it and everyone else has bruises. so needless to say...

we didn't manage to get to the church thing.

the end.

no lie.

oh, and jess's mom's car is totalled but she doesn't want us to say so even though the entire front end is bashed in.

and the right headlight was on the ground.

-caty

dear caty,
oh. haha.
im not sure why i didnt like it. it just seemed weird. idk. maybe cuz it just wasnt my type of movie. kinda the same with where the wild things are. i enjoyed it... but it definitely isnt one of my favorites. idkk. and i was reading that and i thought it said "me and jess ate her house" lmao i was like wait whatt?! hahah. and i reallly like new moon when i saw it in theaters. but now that ive seen it about 4 times, its kinda boring haha. did jess like it?
ohmigoshh! so tell me more about this steve guy you likee. haha. im kidding... you dont actually have to tell me anything about him... unless you want to? lol. haha and delmar is such a fatty, yes. it was funny cuz zoe was all "delmar, you're my best friend right?" and he was like "danas my best friend." i felt all special :] and then i was leaving and he was like "bye wife!" and i was like byee. haha.
:)

-dana

dear dana,

an epiphany is a realization that changes your life, whether momentarily or forever. so, that's how it's an epiphany. since last night, my life is changed. well...it's been changed for quite some time. but now it's obvious to me, and i finally realize it. so that's how it's an epiphany.

you didn't like it? why not? i really liked it. i thought it was done up well, and was freaky, but cool. for easter, me and jess ate at her house and came to my house to watch new moon. i did not enjoy that cuz i hated new moon, but my mom got it for me for easter, and jess wanted to see it.

well, if you're realllyyyy wondering. i'll tell you who i like. there's this kid named steve, and i reallyyyyy realllyyyyy reallyyyy like him. like, a ton. so that's who i like.

and i am soooo happy for you and delmar. he's such a fatty though, eating the ring you gave him. gosh.

-caty

dear caty,
i dont see how thats an epiphany... although its probably just my lack of knowing what an epiphany is.  so explain please haha. uhmm... i dont have much to say. me and zoe saw alice in wonderland. i didnt think it was all that great. but we had fun haha. anddd i went to syracuse for easterr. whatd you doo? andd yeah school is school. and i still like corey, which is weird because i dont talk to him like thatt much and i never see him. but besides him i dont like anyone else. i would ask who you like... but thatd be a very stupid question. lol anywhoo... me and delmar got married! because he was just saying we were bffs and then i had a ring on my left hand ring finger and so he said we were married. and then someone asked why he didnt have a ring and i said he ate it so theres a part of me inside of him. and then he said "woah thats what she said" hahah. so um yeahh.
kay bye :]

-dana

dear dana,

i'm sorry i haven't written in awhile. and i'm writing this in a hurry because it's right before i need to leave for school.

to update you on my life, let me tell you that i talked to dillon last night. like...really talked to him. sometimes we talk, but they're brief. and last night, i spent over an hour on the phone with him. there were some tears--from both of us, if you can believe it. and a lot of confessing. and...it actually made me feel better. i've been dealing with the weight of dillon for a year and a half, and i don't think it's completely gone, but he made me realize something last night: when we had our thing going on, we were both in really bad places. it took me till now, to look back at myself a year ago and realize it. i was a mess. i had yet to pull my shit together and stop doing whatever it was i was doing, or start doing what i should have been doing.

and that's an epiphany! i. was. a. fucking. mess. and now, i'm not. partially thanks to him, in fact. so...idk. i just thought i needed to share that with someone. write it down, before the epiphany flew out of my head.

-caty

dear caty,

yes, old people do tend to forget things a lot haha. so good luck with all of that anyways.

and im glad that he at least apologized even if you're still not happy about it. i think the girlfriend/boyfriend and friends thing should be mutual. you spend time with only your girlfriend/boyfriend and you spend time with only your friends and you spend time with both. and you cant ditch one for the other. ditching friends is wrong and ditching your bf/gf is wrong as well.

now about john writing about us. jess told me that they had to do a writing thing in school and write a page about one of their friends. and i guess john said he wanted to write about one of his new friends caty or dana. but as you read im guessing, he couldnt because he knows nothing about either of us so that wouldnt get him very far.

in other news... zoe was being a stupid hooker this morning. somehow we brought up her and zak. (which is the kid she dated where she was a complete bitch to me) and i was like "yeah i just ignored you during that time" shes like "thats fine cuz you were being annoying." and im like wth i was just telling you that you were being stupid and guess what? i was right. and she was all well you didnt have to do it like that. and im like i was telling you what i knew and you didnt wanna listen and i was right. and she was just being ugh. and i love how she thinks shes smarter than me just because shes in IB. like im not gonna go on and on about how im smarter because in all truth idk if i am. i mean maybe i am, maybe im not. but the fact that shes in IB doesnt make  her smarter. shes all "yeah im in IB so im smarter cuz you're not" well i didnt apply to IB. if i wanted to i could be in it i just dont want to.

so anywhoo... im in art right now and i have nothing to do because we have a substitute teacher. so im writing to you. this whole thing so far took less than 10 minutes. blahh i dont know what to say now. i type fast. ohh i havnt said this in a while: i have to pee. i was thinking of getting a pass but then i decided to wait until my next class. cuz that'll be mega boring and stuff. haha.

ohh! so i almost got a referall today in chemistry because i "talked back". this is what happened. she was helping other people and we called her over like a million times and she never came over. she went from person to person and never to us. so we were talking. and then she told us to not talk. so i was lke "but you're not helping us so what are we just gonna sit here and do nothing? no we're gonna talk." and so after class she called me over and was all "i want you to be more respectful blah blahh"

yeahhh. i changed the font colorrr! whoo! how cool am i?! very! alrighty thenn. long letter. hehe. ok im leaving in 2 minutes so goodbyeee.

-dana

dear dana,

we're thinking of trying to talk to him again after school and maybe it'll jog his memory. he's an adult, so he probably forgot about it cuz he's so old.

and we got into a fight cuz he was ditching me for his friends...again, so we were yelling at eachother in the hallway. but i guess it's okay now, he apologized and admitted he was wrong. i'm still a bit mad though. and we would never fight over global warming. we're both on the same side. durr. :p

i hump you too.

and what was that thing about john writing about us about?

love,

caty :D

dear caty,
yupp. the entire school! you'll be forced to learn on the playground! how awesome would that be?! very! anywhooo... im sorry you didnt have your meeting todayy. it'll happen. and he'll love the idea soo much!
soo... why are you and steve fighting now? i swear you guys are like a married couple. watch you'll fight over global warming or something. hehe :]
i hump youu.

-dana

dear dana,

yes we're gonna dig up the ENTIRE school to make a playground. we didn't have our meeting with him today, sadly. hopefully soon though.

uhm...your house creeps me out cuz eric's there, so not your house. and idk if thursday's good for me. i usually don't know what's happening until atleast wednesday. so i'll let you know.

and as for steve helping me write the song....we're fighting. and i can't even talk to him, so it might be awhile before we're willing to work together on anything.

love,

caty

dear caty,
that sounds like a lovely idea! my house or yours? and this coming weekend im booked. oooh! i could come over thursday after school and sleep over till fridayy. does that work?
i saw that steve wants to help write the song! i think you should put cam's (11 year old black boy) rap verse into the song! itd be coool.
and gooooooood luck with mr. soler? hah idkkk. but i hope you guys get the ok to start digging up your school to make a playground! :]

-dana

dear dana,

well. best friend, when are you free next? we'll build a living room fort and eat icecream next time we have a slumber party. so maybe you can remember, or replace the memory. with a new one.

so i guess steve aka "scuba s." recruited himself to help me write you a song. aren't you glad you have friends like us?

also, wish me luck tomorrow when i meet with mr. soler.

love, caty

dear caty,
i dont remember... i dont remember at all. even with all the details you put into this, i dont remember. sorry :/ we should do it again so i remember! :]
i saw your status on facebook. but nooo i want the story andddd the song! because i looooove your writing! <3

dear dana,

you and i have, in fact, built a fort in the living room before. remember? we had one box in it, and fought over who got to sleep in it. and we ate panda paws, and i think had pulled pork. it was a really long time ago.

i'll just post about it on facebook, asking anyone to come help me write a song about you. and then i'll just delete your story, since you'd rather have the song obviously. :p

love,

caty

dear caty,
what you and steve did sounds like fun. if i had a boyfriend i wish we'd do something as cool as that. i love making forts in my living room. have i done that with you? cuz if i havnt then i should. its mega fun. and yeah you still never gave me that story haha. so a song would be nice! especially about me haha. id love it!

dear dana,

i'm guessing we had fun. that's cool. after you left, me and jess wandered around the house, lost, for a little bit. then we went to my house to watch the boondock saints. then jess left and steve came over for dinner, and we built a fort on the floor in my room and spent a few hours just laying in that and talking.

so, since there's no songs written about you, i'll write one about you. and then record and give it to you as a present. okay? since i still haven't given you your story for your birthday present.

-caty

dear caty,
guess who i saw yesterday and today?? YOU! i know its greatt. we went to a play and had fun and had a sleepover and had fun and went to your house and had fun and went back to jessicas and had fun and guess what?! we had fun! :]

ihy!

-dana

dear dana,

you suck and i hump you more. and guess what? i get to see youuuuuu tomorrow! i'm sooo excited. are you? cuz i am.

i bet i'm even more excited than you. cuz of course i am, cuz you can't get on my level.

:D

caty

dear caty,
ARGGGG! you are wronggg! i hump you the mostestest! and that is that! end of conversation. the end. goodbye. adios. farewell. done. see ya wouldnt wanna be ya. completo! lol itd be sooo stupid if we got into a fight over that and then wed be all "why are we fighting?" and then wed remember and be all "ohhh" hahaha.
so um im in my freshman computer class and we were doing this thing and my teacher said "whoever gets done first should standup and say 'first!'" haha and i got done first and he was all "say first!" so i said first. and then he was all "you should stand in the front of the room and do the victory dance because you came into this class halfway through the year and still got it done before anyone else. and i know everyones gonna say you're a sophomore but thats not an excuse.
soo i feel special! :]
ihy! more than you hump me! :]

-dana your bestest bestest bestie in the whole wide world ever.

dear dana,

NO! i hump you wayyy more. and anyone ever in the history of ever will vouche for that.

love, your bester bestest bestie, CATY. ME.

p.s. wouldn't it be funny if we got into a fight over this?...okay...not funny.

p.p.s. i'm eating cheesecake for breakfast.

p.p.p.s. hi :D

dear caty,
lying isnt nice! because we all know the truth is that i hump you the mostest! forever and always, always and forever. times infinity plus 2! so i think i win. so ha! *sneezes* i just sneezed :]
love, you're bestes bestie evAr dana!

dear dana,

i hump you more. always have. always will. times infinity. end of story.

love, caty. caterzzzloopydooble.

dear caty,
i hump you. always have, always will. forever and ever. the end.
love, me. danerbean. :]

dear caty,
i only said "happy" 7 times! gawshh. and that sounds good. im babysitting saturday night... so friday onto saturday would be good for me.
im trying to make these letters longer by adding random stuff i did that i could update you on... so heres my day. i woke up at 5am and took a shower. blah blahh then i went to the bus stop at 6:30. then i was on the bus and devin got on the commencement bus so i got to hang with him on the bus for a little bit. then i was in school and it was boring. then my mommy picked me up after school and we were gonna get my working permit paper thingy but we didnt have my physical so we couldnt. then my mommy bought my McDonalds. and it was yummy. and now im writing this to you. and in less than an hour im going to go babysit! :]
what did you do?

dear dana,
you must have used the word "happy" atleast twenty times there. and thank you. it's bugging me that i'm not happy, cuz it's just so not him to be the way he's being, and i don't wanna have to be the adult in this relationship and sit him down and say "can you stop being irresponsible, ridiculous, immature?" and ruin his fun.
i think you, me and jess need to have a bestie sleepover this weekend if everyone's available. i had plans with sophie, but i don't really want to follow through with them because i don't want to deal with her. i think it'd cheer me up to get out of the world of guys and just hang out with my besties for awhile.

-caty

dear caty,
im sorry you're not happy. i wish you were. i like it when you're happy. i really thought steve was good for you. i really thought you two were amazing together. i guess its because i only saw you guys together a few times. idk. it makes me sad that you guys arent happy... err... that you arent happy. im a very happy person... idk why... but seeing you unhappy makes me less happy. i think we should get a bunch of us girls together like you me jess and sophie and just have a girls weekend. have a slumber party and go on an adventure. and no boy talk at all! sound like fun? i hope if we do it, it'll cheer you up a bit. i hump you!

-dana

dear dana,
i know hanging out with dillon probably wouldn't be the best idea. but it's stupid to go on pretending we're not close.
and i realized something today...i'm not happy with steve. i don't know if it's that i'm not happy with him, or just not happy in general. but i'm not happy. i'm not even mad at him for anything. it's just this constant state of being the only one trying. it's getting fed up with his lack of responsibility, and his douchebag friends, and his "we won't get to see eachother much" speech. he made it, and then proceeded to skip the first day of tennis AND masterminds today, to go play pool at javas with his friends. and his brother's getting him fucking sex toys for his birthday. he's starting to be a completely different person now.
so, if i'm not happy with him, and i could ruin the already-bad relationship if i see dillon...what is there to lose? shitty way to look at it, but either way i'm unhappy.
also, you always like some new black boy :p but good luck with him.

-caty

dear caty,
i have the same problem as you. i need to keep myself busy or ill go crazy. like in the summer, when i wasnt in summer school, i was almost always with either mel or zoe. and after summer school i spent like a week with zoe and then a week with lauren and stuff. and over february break this year i was like over booked. i cant not do something or ill die.
im not sure what to say about the dillon thing. i dont think you two hanging out would be a good idea because it could lead to 1 of 3 things. 1)you guys doing something you'll regret(kiss, make out, anything sexual) 2)you guys doing something that turns out bad so its awkward for you two and it could hurt you both or 3)everything will be fine and you'll hang out like two normal friends. but theres 33% chance of that. idk. i dont think its a very good idea.
so remember that aaron kid i told you about? i think i like him. hes pretty... and funny... and easy to flirt with. the only person i told is zoe. he has a girlfriend so id rather not having anyone else know. i kinda like being single but it'd be nice to have a boyfriend. i liked the feeling of that when me and chandler were steady for the times that were at least a month. yeahhh... so thats allll.

-dana

dear dana,
the only issue i have with not seeing steve other than in school is that i have to keep myself busy. i'm doing a good job of that this week though. today, i've got gsa. tomorrow, me and sophs are going to wegmans and getting onion rings. we're on a mission to find the best in rochester. wednesday, i'm finally getting to spend time with steve. thursday,
well...thursday i might be hanging out with dillon. i'm not sure if i want to, or if i really...should, you know. he's been weird lately. he's not like himself. he's actually being a bit like chandler. kind of needy, nervous all the time. it's bugging me cuz i can tell there's something going on with him, and he's mostly...coming to me with it, and i don't know how to handle it. >.< i don't know. it's kinda messing with me. not the way dillon usually does. in that "he's ruining my life and collapsing my brain" way. moreso in the "what's wrong with him" worried way.
anyway....i'm keeping myself busy so that i don't freak out from being away from steve for too long.

-caty

p.s. i'm writing this in my study hall. i'm listening to 3oh!3 with jarrvis's headphones.

dear caty,
oh. i thought you meant hed be gone for 2 weeks. haha. so its not thatttt bad. and its good that your not getting mad at people as much or whatevs. i try not to get mad at people too.
so yesterday i didnt do my chores which was laundry so me and my mommy agreed that id do it today. but she told eric to do laundry cuz she thought i did the dishes... but i didnt. so then she was yelling at me to do the dishes and im like no cuz my chore was laundry not dishes. so she took my phone and blah blah blah she was being stupid and everything and blah blah but then she gave it back at like 9pm lol. shes stupid :p
weekends are so boring when theres nothing to do.

-dana

dear dana,
i'll be seeing steve, of course. we have school and stuff. but he's gone this weekend. and he's gone next weekend. and every day of the week he has tennis now, starting monday. but i guess we're gonna hang out wednesday but i won't count on it. so i'll see him, just only in school, and only for 45 minutes a day.
and i haven't been pissed off much this week. i'm trying to keep my mind occupied so i don't get mad at people. i still do it, of course. cuz people are still annoying. and now i have to find something to keep me busy for tonight and tomorrow so that i don't think and freak out about not seeing steve. cuz i don't fare well when i go even a day without seeing him.

-caty

dear caty,
YES aaron is my new black friend! and i love him! hahah.
and im sorry about autumn. i hope things work out for her. from what i've heard from you she seems so troubled... but when i met her in summer school she didnt seem like that at all.
and its good that you've been decent and not bad or horrible or terrible or anything else haha. i understand the "stfu all of you" feeling. i dont get it that much but when someone pisses me off i do. you and steve can work through 2 weeks of not seeing eachother. will you be able to call or write or anything? cuz that'd make it easier. and if not maybe you could write him letters! and then keep them. and give them to him when you see him again... or you could just keep them haha. but yeah i think that'd be a cute thing to do. like write to him when hes not there. ya know?
anywho... im home alone... but i think alan just pulled into the driveway. idk. ohh and notice i didnt talk about peeing or anything... until right now... but this doesnt actually count! kay bye :]

-dana

p.s. nvm it was my mommy that came home. not alan haha

dear dana,
awwww. is aaron your new black friend? :p
and i'm sorry. -ahem- how i've been is....
decent. some days i have really good days. some days i'm just like "shut the fuck up. all of youuu." i'm annoyed at a few people, and i've been worrying about autumn(she's in a shelter cuz she couldn't live with her mom and she doesn't have any clothes or anything. ]:) but i'm doing really well in school. they're putting me in AP world history next year. which'll be my first AP class, obvz. :D and me and steve are doing well right now. but idk how long that'll last. cuz we're not gonna see eachother really for about 2 weeks or so starting saturday :[ so we'll see what happens.
and how are YOU?!

-caty

dear caty,
hahaha i didnt even realize that! its not my fault that i always have to pee! gawshhh.
anywhooo... hehehe ill whisper so sophie cant see. *whispers* im gonna get her a bowl of rice *stops whispering* isnt that awesome!? lmaooo. ...i was kidding b-t-dubbs... if you didnt know that. hahah. and the "iou sex" thingy makes me giggle! lmao its like him-"hey babe..." *hands coupon* you-"now?!" lol you'll be in like some random ass place :p
hehe so yayyy! i gets my birffday present when i see you! like a month late! :] haha. b-t-dubbs, you never answered my "how have you been" question.
so um theres this 9th grader black kid in IB and his name is aaron and i thought he was like just a ghetto black kid who just happens to be smart... but hes not! haha i now classify the black IB boys as "nerdy gangsters" lmao because they act soo like lame and white ish but then ghetto too... like idk. aaron is wayy more crazy silly funny type than i thought. haha and i sit by him in my computer class. its awesome!

-dana

dear dana,
see, i told you that you always talk about peeing. what were you just talking about? I DON'T WANNA KNOW ABOUT YOUR URINATION! jesus.
and i can't tell you what i'm getting sophie for her birthday cuz i know she reads this(AHEM). but for steve's, i'm giving him a mix cd, these "IOU sex" coupon things that are really cute, and i'm baking him cookies. i'm giving them to him on friday, because he's not gonna be here all weekend, cuz of a church thing he has to go to.
and also, i typed your story so next time i see you, i'll print it out and give it to you. and then you can finally get your birthday present! :D



-caty

dear caty,
im sorry i havnt writen back in soo long. ive driven a total of 2 times! haha. my mommy had me go on the streets and so i was going on like my street and rocket and stuff and then she was like "go on bay" and i was like "omg no! im not ready yet!" haha but i did and i didnt crash! my mom was like freaking out at every little thing i did though. like i cant turn left very well and she was all "omg what are you doing?!" haha it was fun.
last night i cleaned my room :] so its all nice and clean now haha. it took like hours to do. because i get distracted by every little thing i find and yeahh.
so im in my freshman computer class right now and i really have to pee. zoe and brian and delmar were trying to do and say things that will make me have to pee more but it didnt work haha. zoe was like "dana, veronica keeps pressing the 'P' button" lmao.
anywho... how have you been? better? i hope. sophie and steves birthdays are coming up. what are you gonna get them? if anything haha.

-dana

dear dana,
that's a narwhal. and i love narwhals because they're the unicorn of the sea. thank you for the narwhal. i hump you.
i think i lied about not wanting to ride in a car with you. when your mommy takes you driving, i think you should take me with you so i can see you drive and scream in the backseat. i bet you're a really good driver. unlike me, who will be a terrible driver. because i spend so much of my time playing grand theft auto, ya know.
actually, i had a dream like last week or something. where i had a car and i was driving it but i wasn't supposed to be so i kinda stole it, but i didn't feel bad about it. i was just thinking "hey, what am i gonna do when i get home? i'm gonna fucking get arrested, aren't i?" and i was driving like i was in grand theft auto, minus the running into other cars and running people over. but i was weaving between cars-quite deftly if i do say so myself, and running red lights and speeding. it was awesome. that's how you should drive.

♥,
caty

dear caty,
this is for you.

love,

dana

dear caty,
im glad you and steve at least arent fighting anymore. hopefully tonight will be fun for you both. you should save me a cookie :p haha.
my week has been good... i dont really remember monday or tuesday. wednesday i got my permit which i was afraid i was gonna fail the test. it is easy... not as easy as some people make it seem, but still easy. i got 1 question wrong but you're allowed to get like 5 wrong so i did good haha. i dont actually have the thingy yet... they're going to mail it to me.
yesterday i drove for the first time! i was nervous haha. lauren was in the back seat and alan was in the passenger seat. they were both helping me and telling me what to do. i was surprised at how nice alan was being towards me. i went in circles in a big parking lot and i went around a building and rubbed up against a snow bank >.< and i parked in a parking space near a car and i backed out. they both said i did good. so im happy :]
today im supposed to go to this teddi dance for love thing with mel but she said her mom wont let her go... so idk if i can go. if i dont i might go to jessicas because she told me to lol. and the rest of my weekend... no plans. haha. yeahh and this week off will be funn!

-dana

dear dana,
wednesday sure. pssh pssh. but who goes shopping on a tuesdayyy?! cool bosses like us. yeah :D
so this week has been a long week. i didn't like it much. i'm sure you don't feel the same way :p since you got to drive, which is awesome and terrifying to me.
me and steve didn't stop fighting until wednesday and we still haven't gotten to fully resolve everything because yesterday we were bombarded by 4 boys insisting that we play apples to apples with them. unbeknownst to them, we played as a team....and still lost to danny. but he's coming over tonight after hack club, and we're probably gonna talk and make some oatmeal cookies and have a...hopefully pleasant night.
before wednesday, i had to live through tuesday which was a bad day. one of those days where i'm telepathically screaming at dillon to "call me RIGHT NOW or get online or SOMETHING!" and he did. which actually made my night even crazier, and it's been on my mind since then and has only momentarily gone away from time to time.
so how was your week?

-catyyyy

dear caty,
steve sucks and should be kicked for being a jerk to you. thats what you said i should say :] so i took your advice and told you! haha but you guys are great together and need to stop fighting. i dont wanna see you unhappy.
anywho we should have bestie time sometime next week. we need to go mallin. and i mean taco bell eating, smoothie drinking, window shopping, flirting, good time mallin. maybe it'd cheer you up a bit. i dont have much money but it'll do for tacos and smoothies.we should do it on like wednesday or something... because wednesday is oh so very random. like who goes shopping on wednesdays? haha.
so yeahh. i hump youu! and i hope you get happpppy. :]

-dana

dear dana,
my fake-happy ended on friday. me and sophie had plans for a sleepover, that still happened. but before that we went out for pizza with everyone. and me and steve got into a fight. about how he doesn't tell me anything that goes on in his life, but while we were still at school, i was talking to danny and i look over, and he's like...whispering in sophie's ear, and i'm like "what's up?" and he's like "oh, nothing." all shady-like. so i got mad, and i was like "you and me need to talk sometime today." and he goes "about what?" and i'm like "you."
so that resulted in a huge silent(we were passing notes so no one else would know we were fighting. they figured it out cuz we wouldn't speak or touch anyway.) fight, about how he never tells me shit and offers up all sorts of information to other girls. and about how i accuse him of being a flirt so he can hardly even talk to any girls, and everyone's mad at him, like his dad and sara. and i act the same way with danny as he does with all of his friends, but then he's the flirt. and i was like, fuck it and went to the bathroom and broke down into tears and wanted to kick a sink.
then i pulled him into the hallway and tried to talk with him, and we pretty much resolved nothing cuz he still didn't tell me what was going on earlier. all he said was that he didn't want to lose me, and would talk to me in the future.
and then he messaged me later in the night while i was at sophie's, sayin "today made for an interesting day :p" and i was like uh....no, today made for a fucking sucky day. and i messaged back saying "how so?" and that's all. and he's been online and never messaged me back or anything.
so that was pretty much the theme of my weekend.

-caty

dear caty,
i know ill find someone who is good to me and worth my time. and yes chandler did that with me. its really annoying. and melissa was the second girl he liked that he started texting. ashley was the first.
i like your suggestions on what to do to 9th graders when they're mean. hahah i like the "swallow a book" one. i think im gonna try that! *goes up to 9th grader with book* "swallow this! now!" hehe. oh and the kicking in the shin reminded me, today i was walking and zoe came up behind me and kicked me in the calf... it wasnt a mean kick but i was like whatt? and she was like "i was trying to kick you in the butt but i missed" im like "how do you miss that much?!" haha she said she was afraid she would have fallen.
im glad you've been happy even if its only fake happy. to me, fake happy is better than no happy. its good you have new friends too. floor hockey is fun. i just got done with it before midterms. im doing volleyball now. and your are project sounds fun too. i cant exactly see what you described lol but im sure its gonna be awesome. in my art class we are starting uhh... like masks. we're gonna put plaster or something like that (what they use to make casts) over our faces and they will take the shape of our faces. and we have to decorate them to show the influence of a famous artist. it'll be cool.
you got some really good grades. especially sense you've been out of school for so long. id be really happy to have your grades. i hope you get above 90 on all your finals! ill bake you something if you do :]. and i dont know why i do bad at science. i think its actually just i do bad on exams. like if i take a test in class ill do really good on it, even if its science. but as soon as its a big exam i jusy do bad. like even algebra... ive taken it for 3 years and i only got an 84. so idk. but whatevs.

-danaa.

dear dana,
it's smart that you're not gonna pursue zhamir. you'll find someone who's worth it eventually, though. chandler always has to make things awkward like that. didn't he do the same thing with you? "i'm gonna ask you out on __ day. and i'm gonna kiss you on __ day." i'm sorry you're jealous though. is she the one he liked before? or was that someone else and this was the second girl he liked and started texting? i can't remember names cuz chandler's life9th graders are mean. next time someone says something about you, you should kick them in the shin. or threaten to make them swallow a book. or beat them with a hockey stick. :D
i'm sorry you've been not-happy among your happy. this week, i've actually been happy. it's kind of a fake-happy, and i know i'm faking it, but it only has to last till tomorrow so i'll take it for now. i've been having good days though. i'm making new friends, and i'm in floor hockey with them in gym, which is amazingly fun. and there's this new project in art that's like...a collage of a landscape/cityscape. and i'm doing mine like an exterior/interior thing. an apartment building on one side, and the back of one on the other side, with huge windows looking into 3 apartments. it's gonna be awesome.
i got my grades on monday. global: 87. spanish: 89. living environment: 86. english: 97. and algebra: 89. :D i'm proud of myself for my grades. but i want over 90s on all my finals. and why do you always do so bad at science? >.<

-catyy

dear caty,
im not sure what eric meant. i just know he called it gay. but anywho... i am not going to pursue my liking of zhamir. i've just lost interest. and you are soo right about boys saying they've changed when they really havnt. and thanks for supporting me whatever i decide. that means a lot to me because a lot of the time people are against what i do. so its nice to have support.
chandler and melissa are going to go out on friday. i think its stupid that they made a date for when hes gonna ask her out but its chandler and hes stupid like that. i think im a little jealous. or something. idk. like me and chandler dont talk very often which has made me think of him less often and he uhh... deactivated his facebook so i dont see him on there either. i think that is great and is helping me get over him because lets face it, im not gonna get over him over night... even though its already been a while. but thats not the point. last week i was happy and i decided that i didnt want to be jealous of chandler, and i didnt want him to be jealous of me if i got a boyfriend. which i think i a good step for me. i really do think it;; be awkward though but whatevs, ill get used to it i guess.
i am now in a 9th grade IB computer programming class with zoe and hakiere and delmar and some of my other lovely freshmen, no chandler or zhamir though. ive been in the class for 2 days now. i havnt done anything yet though because my computer wasnt working haha. but um this kid liam, little white boy from sota, he thought i was zoe and said something and then he was like oh you're dana. and then he said sorry zoe i didnt mean to insult you like that, or something along those lines. im like really? grow up. other then him im liking the class.
i understand what you're saying about the seesaw thingy. thats kinda how i am. but i decided that the happy over rules the non happy. although, ive cried a lot in the past 2 weeks... but im happy..? does that even make sense!? i dont see how it does... but thats how i am. i think ive just been holding in a lot of emotion from the past months and its just coming out. because i keep my feelings in until im alone... which isnt a great thing to do but im not a great talker about that kinda stuff.
but anywho i hope you get your seesaw up so you can be happy! happy is good. oh! did you get any of your midterm grades? in chem i got a 57 after the curve >.< in english i got a 82. in global i got a 85. in math i got a 84. in spanish i got a 65... which is passing at least. and in computers i got a 92. so im happy with most of my grades. okk bye.

-dana

dear dana,
first and foremost: did eric mean gay blog as in "your blog is gay" or as in "the blog where you and caty are gay with eachother via internet"?
as much as i'd like to see you happy, -even if it is with another young boy- i'd say not to trust zham...however you spell it, cuz you've had enough experiences with cheating boys. and you should trust girls over boys, cuz the girls are usually right. just my opinion. we know how guys can be. even when they say they changed or make you trust them. remember dillon? it sounds like a dillon thing. he's doing everything in his power to convince you that he's changed and won't cheat on you. or maybe i'm just biased in a bad way. either way, whether you trust him or trust zoe and desire, i'll support you. because he's funny and referred to your birthday as "conceited day." ahahaha. :D
other than that, i'm glad you're happy. i like to see everyone happy. i'm trying to get happy too, but so far i'm only happy in two areas. 1: family. and 2: steve. everything else is like a seesaw and i can't decide if i'm happy or miserable with it. i'm working on it though. hopefully i'll get that seesaw up and be happy soon! or atleast once all this stupid SNOW goes away! ugh >.<

-caty

dear caty,
today is the last day of january. im bored. im at my daddys house and my brothers a douche bag as usual. umm... i dont really have much to say cuz i just saw you.
oh. well zoe told me zhamir had a gf and i asked him and he said they broke up 2 weeks ago. but then desire, from my party, used to date him and she said he cheated on her. i talked to him about it and he was really convincing that he changed. im not sure what to believe. i mean he could have changed... but then again he might not have. so idk. i guess whatever happens happens. i really hope he doesnt hurt me though.
just a few days ago i was sitting on my bed and i thought to myself "im happy" and i really am. i am soo very happy. i have no drama in my life and im happy... but then i had to find out this stuff about zhamir and it just made me a little less happy. but anywhoo.
also eric makes me not happy. he just said "is that your gay blog?" im like "this is how me and caty communicate." hes like "you know theres phone and texting and stuff." its like eric stfu. we want to write letters. so yeah.
but other than those minor details im happy as can be! what about you? :]

-dana

dear dana,
your week sounds fun. especially today! my plans for today have changed. instead of going to steve's, i'm at school until my test at 12. wanna know why? i went to his house this morning and he wasn't UP! i'm so mad, if you couldn't figure. i have never been so livid with him before. ever. >.< plus, i tried calling like, an hour later. and they didn't pick up the phone. i'm actually figuring it was danny not waking steve up this morning because he wanted to sleep in.
so i'm very much looking forward to today being over, and getting to hang out with you and jess.

-caty

dear caty,
im going to summarize everything after friday for you. so saturday (zoe had slept over from friday) me and zoe hung out. we went to her gmas house and out to dindin and she pierced my ear. it didnt hurt that much which i thought it would. anywho there has been a safety pin in my ear for the past few days and i took it out today and i couldnt get the earring in so im just gonna let it close. i dont really care about it.
sunday i went home and me and my mom and eric and will went to mels house and had dindin there. my mom made lasagna and her mom made chicken with rice and beans. yummy. and me and mel and will watched "julie and julia" which i enjoyed. and the three of us had a tickle fight which was funny lmao. id never think of having a tickle fight with will.
monday i had school. my band teacher gave me a dollar and a huge chocolate bar as a birthday present.the day was boring i guess. this kid zhamir (zuh-meer) likes me. and he told hakiere that he wanted to "bag me" lol. obviously hes black. and hes a freshie and i like him too. whats up with me and black freshies?
tuesday was possibly the most amazing day of my life. it was my 16th birthday (duh) and i loved it. it started off normal. bus ride to school. i had 2 tests with a total of 4 essays. in between the two tests i sat in the lunch room for about 2 hours with aracelis, anna, and jessica edwards. we were like high or something. we were laughing and screaming and being crazy. but it was soo fun. then i took my other test and i finished with an hour left so i went to sleep. when i woke up it was time to go. so i started walking to my bus. 2 freshman boys got off their bus to come hug me and tell me happy birthday. my bus was the very last one and i was the last one to get on it. i was tired too cuz i just woke up and all my freshman friends yelled "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" and then they tickled me lol. it was totally awesome though. i felt loved. then i went home and me and my mom were gonna go shopping. i asked what mall we were going to and she said greece. and i said we have to go to either east view oe market place for aerie. and she started flipping out on me about how we dont have that much time cuz she has to go back to work later and all this stuff. so i got mad. but then i shopped. and i bought a bunch of clothes. and it made me happy. so cure to danas sadness = shopping. so then i went home and i was texting zhamir. and he lives near me so he came over and we went for a long walk around the neighborhood. it was nice.
this morning i slept in because i had an afternoon test. it was nice to sleep in. and i woke up to a sweet text saying "good morning my love" from zhamir. lol and then my daddy drove me to school and i took my test and i went outside and waiting for about 50 minutes in the freezing cold for jess to come. then i hung out with her... and corey lmao. because matt and corey and devon were there but after a while matt drove devon home so corey hung out with me and jess.
tomorrow i have an afternoon test same time as yours. then ill hang out with you guys!
i've taken (in school) algebra and computers and gym. (midterm week) global, english, and spanish. and tomorrow i take chem. which will suck. haha okk this is longg. bye :]

-dana

dear dana,
tomorrow i'm hanging out with you and jess. i've cancelled alllll my other after-test plans and am spending the day with YOU GUYS! my test is from 12 to 2. so i'm going to take my normal bus to jessica's. and before my test, i'm going to steve's so i'm close by and not waiting at school.
as for today, i spent the day with steve(shocker.) we had a very nice day. he made me breakfast when i got to his house at almost 11, from school. (my test was a morning one today.) we spent a few hours asleep till about 1:15. then we ate again. he made waffles. we did nothing for awhile, and went on a walk to a playground to swing. and then we played beatles rockband, and caught a bus to gma's where we had fried chicken for dinner. it was lovely :D
so far i've taken living environment, global and english. tomorrow's algebra, and then i'm done. i have friday off which is gonna rock.
how's your testing week been?

-caty

dear caty,
im glad you and steve will probably be there tonight. you guys'll make it more fun. i dont get why just because boys and girls hang out a lot people think they go out. like i walk to and from the bus everyday before and after school with hakiere. because we're friends. and we ride the same bus. do we go out? NO! lol
and no i have not noticed almost all of my letters have something about bathrooms in them lmao. i should check that out. its not an obsession. i dont like bathrooms. well i like the public ones with big mirrors but only if they're clean.
i understand that you could care less about chandler lol. and it buggs me that he left you guys for olga. i mean id be embarassed to be around her in public. then again id be embarassed to be chandler in public :p.
dooood i soooo love the "pants on the ground" dude! i was telling my mom about it and she said she heard a little bit of it on the radio and she was dying when i was doing it haha. "how old are you?" "62" "thats a little over the age limit of 28" lmfao.
i like superghetto things :] hahah my teacher was standing behind my computer and he like leaned over top of it to see what i was doing haha. and your conversation with that dood sounds interesting. i like how he can walk on water like jesus :]

dear dana,
i think me and steve will probably be there. he told me to let him know what i decide, and he'll follow suit. ewwww, eric. i'm not excited about seeing him. or that other family member of yours, who is a total bad-word-i-can't-say. my global teacher thinks i'm dating danny, cuz she always sees me with him after school cuz our 8th period classes are next to eachother. i don't have the heart to tell her that the boy she is talking about is in fact, my boyfriend's little brother. awkward.
i hope you've noticed by now that almost every single one of your letters talks about a bathroom somewhere in it. why is that? do you have a new obsession? it just gets weirder and weirder.
i try to not keep up with chandler anymore, cuz i could care less. i saw him a few weeks ago, but it was very brief. and all i did was give him reason to be jealous of my relationship, cuz me, steve and sophie went to spot, and he was there. but so was olga, so he left to hang out with her. >.< cuz none of us will go near her. she has a plague.
american idol is always funny. like that tiptoeing guy from tuesday. oh dear god, me and sophie almost had seizures from laughing so hard. it was crazy. and of course, we can't forget the new sensation sweeping the nation...pants on the ground. my global teacher sang it to poncho the other day, because he was walking around, showing off his underpantssss. so she goes "you need that song. pants on the ground. pants on the ground. lookin' like a fool with your pants on the ground."
so if i come tonight, we have lots to discuss. and your present is either gonna be superghetto or not done. me and steve never got a chance to finish it this week, but i'll try to do it today cuz i've got slc, so i'll have free time.
"are you guys bestfriends?"
"yep."
"do you sell drugs together?"
"yup."
"sell drugs on the corner?"
"yup."
"what corner?"
"dewey."
"ohhh. dewey ave?"
"yup."
"now i get it. you're talking about how many bricks you're gonna get."
"exactly."
"how much you gonna make off that?"
"alot."
"about 50 g's?"
"somewhere around there."
"what's that? about 45 bricks?"
"eh, more or less."
"does it come by boats or trains?"
"trains. always trains. they check boats."
"low key. smart. you're alot smarter than me. i just walk across the water."
"like jesus?"
"yeah, i just carry it. 'what's that?' 'my breakfast.' 'from where?' 'puerto rico, i'm just taking it home.' 'it's powder.' 'oh...' and they just let me go. 'where'd you learn to walk on water?' 'it's an aquired skill.'"

^^^that is what i love about east. this kid asked me about what i was writing, and that was the following conversation.^^^

-caty

dear caty,
so is steve for sure not going? haha brandon will feel weird cuz he asked today "am i gonna be the only boy?" and now it'll be him and eric and will. but eric and will really arent part of the party. anywho i understand the you and danny time thing. thats kinda what i was thinking it was anyways.
oh and we're going bowling at 7 so we'll probably leave around 6:30... if you can come to my house before 6:30 great. or if you can get a ride to the AMF in webster. cuz thats where we're gonna be. if not thats fine too.
so i think i got my period today... and i wore a pad to school just in case. but i had to use the bathroom. so i went to the third floor bathroom cuz im on the third floor. there was a sign on the door that said "out of order" so i was like ook and went downstairs to the second floor bathroom. i went in it and discovered there was no toilet paper. so i wasnt gonna go to the third floor so i just came back to my class. i still have to go potty :[
hah that was a reallllly weird paragraph. oh and chandler and ashley like..er... liked eachother. and they were planning on going out. im completely fine with that. but last night chandler was texting this other girl melissa and telling her he wanted to cuddle with her and all this stuff. so i was like why is he like messing with ashley then? so i texted him saying "i thought you liked ashley?" and he said "i do" and i said "then whyd you say all that stuff to melissa?" and he said "idk ill tell ashley about it" i said "and say what?" and he said "that i like someone else too and that she hasnt shown interest to me lately" then i kinda went off on him about how hes messing with their feelings and he always likes a million people at once and stuff. and me and ashley talked about it and she said that he was being stupid because she never stopped showing interest that she was going through some stuff at home and she couldnt talk to him as much. im not sure if i really should have said that to chandler but i felt a need to because chandler has been like this for forever and he needs to change. and i also thought chandler going after melissa was wrong because DJ and melissa just stopped liking eachother. and DJ said hed never date me because i dated chandler and chandlers like a brother to him... but chandler will go and date a girl who DJ just liked? i thought it was just ugh idk. chandler buggs me. so we're not talking right now. but who knows how long that will last. so yeahh.
i was watching american idol last night and it made me laugh sooo much! haha this dude did a split and just like randomly stopped singing and announced *ghetto black guy voice* "i done ripped my pants" lmao i was dying. and this dude was all "simon cowwel i am going to hollywood!" and simon was all "no you're not." hahah. yeah i thought it was funny. anywho i still gotta pee >.< i have 10 more minutes till schools out. gahhhh. ok long letter done. byee

-dana

dear dana,
hopefully i can make it to your party. i'm still not sure what me and steve have planned for friday, but if there's time after the "meeting" we have with craig and everyone, we'll be there--or atleast i will.
uhm...you probably won't even get this today. well, i'm not sure. but donuts delite is kinda just a me-and-danny thing. so we can talk. cuz we don't get much time alone together.
[[b-t-dubbs, the kid next to me just read this and said "i'm going to that party too."]]

-caty

dear caty,
i guess you're right. im still gonna invite boys. im just not going to invite chandler because i've been thinking about it and i just dont think it'll be a good idea. but yes to boys. i dont wear make up a lot. its too much of a hassle i think. if i do wear it, it'll be on fridays or the weekends. and lately i've been thinking i look not as pretty and a few days ago i got a text that was a forward and it said something like, "what did you think when you first met me?" and i sent it to some guys and they all responded something like, "shes pretty" or "shes cute" and it made me feel better.
i hope you can come to my party. ill be sad if you cantt. would you mind if i came to donuts delite with youu? i havnt been in there since i was little. and yes your week sounds very busy. my week isnt busy at all... it never is. the only day im doing something is friday. but whatevs. okk bye.

-dana

dear dana,
if you've already invited guys, it's bad manners to just say "oh, nope. it's girls only now." so it wouldn't be a good idea to uninvite them. but if you don't want them there, you shouldn't have to deal with them.
i'm happy for you that you're gonna look amazing. if it was my party, i wouldn't even care cuz it's people who me all the time anyway. so they'll just go "oh, she's wearing makeup for once. whoopdidoo." i don't wear makeup anymore, b-t-dubbs. incase that didn't give it away.
i might not be able to come to your party, though. there's business to be taken care of on friday, and i'm not sure how long it's gonna take. but i'll let you know, and i'll try to be there. just let me know what you decide about the boys, so that steve knows if he should be going or not.
this week, i've got a full week. today me and sophie are scouring the library for a book steve had to read for morris[[an english teacher. the best teacher here.]] last year that he told me about that sounded really good, and then going to my house for food. tomorrow is wednesday, and wednesday's are mine and steve's days until eli gets ungrounded. thursday, me and danny are walking all the way to culver to go to donuts delite to get some donuts, cuz last time we went they had NO DONUTS. it was a fucking disgrace. and then friday, i've gotta get to jeff's house after school because we have to have a sit down with craig and we need 3 guys plus me and sophie to make sure he doesn't go out and do something stupid. and then your party of course.
how's your week gonna be?

-catyyyy

dear caty,
i really dont want eric going... maybe i should change it back to girls only? would steve be sad about that? idk. and im not sure if i want to invite chandler because i told him i was never going to go out with him again and he got mad. and now hes going to go out with ashley. and hes depressing and annoying and i just dont know if i want to invite him. what do you think?
zoe is making me an awesome skirt for my birthday. its butterfly material lol and i just bought a really cute new top from khols. and i bought make up and nail polish and i think im going to look simply amazing on friday. and if i dont i will be sad because its my 16th birthday party.
and i cant meet you at vas on friday because i've got a lot to do before people come. and zoe is coming over to help me get ready. so sorry about that but when we're not bowling we can walk away from everyone at some point to talk. im not sire what else to say right now because i typed more before but it didnt save :[ so uhh bye :]

-dana

dear dana,
to your second letter: we were so little! haha. those were the good old days. we had like, no drama with eachother or anyone then. remember how nice that was?
to your first: i know it's sad danny won't be there. he showed me the date on his permission slip and i was like "balls, dannnyyyyyyy. you're not commmmmingggggg?" and he said he has to go the boyscouts[ahaha] thing. and we don't need an even amount! cuz lauren, will and eric will run away and makeout with eachother. and zoe and mel will watch. so it'll just leave us cool kids...and brandon and channy.
i didn't talk to dillon about what was wrong. but it was nice to just talk to him lightly and friendly and like....like there's a chance for us to be good friends again cuz i miss that. but i know steve's different. i hate doubting him like i do, but i know better most of the time. i spent this entire weekend with him. like...he came over friday night after he spent the day with jeff & david, and i spent the day with sophs & danny. and he didn't leave till today at 3. so all. weekend. and usually, i get tired of people after that long. but we kept ourselves occupied and we had fun together. i think that was what i needed to get my mind straight on the subject of him.
i think we should meet at vas on friday, and then go to your house after we chat there for awhile. so we can have some bestie-time before your party :D and i have your present!! well...sort of. i'm working on it, with steve's help, and some help from jeff. but you're gonna get a kick out of it, i think! i can't wait. not that it'll be able to top your CAR from last year.

-caty

dear caty,

look how cute we were. i really miss the days back when we were innocent little thirteen and fourteen year olds. we had soo much fun. i just felt a need to put part of our past up here. :] i hump you.

-dana

dear caty,
aww im sad now that danny cant come. and you're right about the part where i agree that my birthday is more important. and i just send a facebook invitation to all of you people. so next on my list is britt ochterbeck.. but now theres gonna be an uneven amount of boys and girls... but whatevs lol. and no it is not ok for you to fight lauren lol. chandler yes. hahah.
im not sure if its a good or bad thing that you wanted to talk to dillon. but im glad he popped up when you needed him to. did you guys talk and did he listen? was he being a good dillon? lol. and i know its hard for you because of what dillon has done but you need to try and not think of steve like dillon. i can tell hes a totally different person. steve will always be there for you.
im glad you did well on your spanish too! and im also worried about midterms. im not freaking out about them, probably because i've taken them for years but i am worried. i do really good on little tests but when i take big exams i do really bad. like last years algebra final... you'd think i'd do really good on it because i got straight 100s through the year, but no, i only got an 84. and earth science... i took it over in summer school and i knew like everything but i only got an 80. and i hope you dont fail your algebra test. maybe i can help you study at my party! cuz im an expert at algebra! im taking it still >.<
so yeah i dont have much to update on either. you should come to my house directly after school on friday (the day of my party) and we could chill before everyone else comes. kay byee

-dana

dear dana,
i'm looking forward to bowling at your birthday adventure! but danny is probably not gonna be able to come cuz he has to go camping with boyscouts. i think that sucks and your birthday is much more important. and i'm sure you agree since...you're you and you love yourself so much. :p i think it's sad that i dislike everyone but jess, danny and steve on that list. but i promise not to try and fight anyone...maybe...probably. maybe lauren. would that be acceptable?
i'm over dillon, and yet, he still helps me through tough times. last night, steve was being weird. and it reminded me of how whenever dillon was about to dump me, he'd start being distant and weird with me. so i almost had a panic attack cuz i was freaking out so bad. and i kept thinking "i want to talk to dillon, and maybe yell at him and blame him. or maybe just cry and have him listen cuz he'd listen anyway." and then....lo-and-behold, an IM pops up...from dillon. it's like he's got this magic about him, no matter how much i sometimes want him gone.
i'm glad you did good on your spanish! i did good on mine too. we did the speaking part today, and i'm really slow with speaking cuz i don't pick it up well or practice. but i still got a 100. and midterms are in about a week, and it freaks me out cuz i hate big tests. and i'm afraid i'm gonna fail my algebra again this year. i'll die if that happens.
i don't think i have anything big to update on. nothing's been going on that i can write to you on the blog. but at your party, or maybe before that if we talk or see eachother, i have many things to tell you.

-catyyy

dear caty,

i think we should call my birthday party a birthday adventure! it sounds so much more awesome! haha and im not sure who coming yet but heres my invite list: you, jess, zoe, lauren, mel, danny, steve, chandler, eric, will, and brandon? im not quite sure. if anyone cant come ill invite britt ochterbeck. and if more people cant come then ill either find other people or it'll just be a smaller party lol.

im glad you're over dillon. i am too. i was reading my diary the other day and it had some things about dillon in it from when i liked him. it was such a short period of time, and so long ago that i dont even remember it really. when i think dillon, i think you and dillon not me and dillon. i have a thing for sweet guys and boy was he sweet. till he was all "im gonna steal your friend catys heart." and then he actually did. lol but whatevs.

i had to pee a lottt earlier haha but i went pee like 10 minutes ago. im in school. i hate peeing in school. anywhooo i have my speaking portion of my spanish midterm today and it was sooo super easy! me and my teacher were going out to lunch. she asked me where i wanted to go. i said taco bell. lmao she said *in spanish* "do you want a hamburger?" "no" "do you want a hot dog?" "no" "what do you want?" "yo quiero taco!" = i want taco! haha so yeah she was like ok what do you want to drink and i said lemonade. so i got 100 on that part.

so all is good in dana world. i just sneezed. thought id put it out there. oh in lunch khang and DJ were talking about my boobs being all weird and stuff. and then khang asked if i would let my husband boob fuck me. im like idkk! and he was like oh chandler you're gonna get that! im like alrighty then creeper. i saw layne THREE times today. thats a new record! he half hugged me half attacked me. lmao it was weird. anywhoo i guess thats alll.

-dana

dear dana,
we could call your birthday party a...."birthday get-together." it sounds much less childish, right? i don't know if steve's coming. i'll be sure to ask him...or atleast i'll try to remember to ask him. who is coming to your birthday?
i don't know how my midterms week looks like, but i'm probably spending most of it with steve. sorry :[ cuz we'll have the house to ourselves all week since danny stays all day, and steve has almost no tests.
me and jess have both read go ask alice. let me know if you like it, cuz we really didn't. it was slow, and...uninteresting.
so as much as i hate getting up at 5:30 for school every day, i hate weekends even more. i don't fare well without steve around, and i feel lost without him. it makes me wish we were older so i could see him everyday, instead of just school days and whenever his dad can bring him over here. i want to see him, cuz i get lonely without him, and i know he's stressed out right now, probably partly due to the fact that he left his backpack here on friday. :[
so yeah...i hate weekends cuz i never get to see him. they're miserable and stupid. and i'm just not even in the mood to be with anyone but him, and he's the farthest person away from me. i hate being in bad moods. dillon used to put me in these moods, and then he'd be the only person i wanted to see, which would make it worse because i always knew it wouldn't happen.
i don't know if i've already told you, but i'm over dillon. sure, i still hold a little anger in me towards him, and sure, i still care about him. but when i'm upset, he's no longer the first person i want to talk to. i no longer use his hoodie as a security blanket, or read over those silly letters we once wrote back and forth, or the old IMs i had saved. i'm over him, as much as i can be. i confirmed it the other night, cuz i looked at a picture of him and kristen. and i didn't get a feeling of "god, i need him" when i looked at him or "god, i wish i was her" when i looked at her. i looked at them together, and i was happy for him. i'm proud of myself for it. i finally got over it, and steve is mostly to thank for it.

-caty

dear caty,
i feel like having a "birthday party" sounds really stupid and childish. i think we should call it something else. like... idk. but something else lol. im glad danny wants to come. i wasnt sure if it would be weird but i was thinking i needed more boys instead of just chandler or something so i was like "ohh caty and jess know them so its not like nobody will know them!" so yeahh. and is steve coming? i think he shold. i think if you two talk and spend time having fun without all of your usual friends maybe things will be better.
im in english right now. i had to type up an essay and im done now lol. oh and guess what! i have an A+ in chemistry! 105% isnt that amazing!? im so proud of myself haha. oh and i have TWO midterms on my birthday :[ maybe we could hang out during midterm week? let me know what your schedule looks like.
another thing you should be proud of me for... im reading! like a book! lol its called Go Ask Alice. idk if you've heard of it or read it but sophie said she read it. its a good book. and yeahh. my class is gonna be over in a few minutes so this is all for now i guess.
i hope everything with you and steve gets better! ihy!

-danaa

dear danerzzz,
while i read your letter, danny was sitting next to me and i said "danny, dana wants to know if you want to go to her birthday party. we're going bowling!" and he jumped for joy(we were in school) and said he wants to go! so danny's coming to your birthday party. and of course, that's the greatest present of all, isn't it? almost as good as the flashlight i'm getting you.
i'm in spanish again, writing to you. and i'm really tired and cranky today. cuz i'm having issues with steve. >.<
which you already knew from reading my blog. but yeah, he's a major flirt, and it really bothers me and makes me insecure after all the shit with dillon. so i should probably talk to him about it. but i haven't. instead, i've been on edge and snapping at him all week. and as much as it pains me to say this, yesterday was a welcome break from him because he just makes me upset lately.
yesterday, i spent with danny, jeff, craig and sophie. me and the three boys spent about an hour sitting in a third floor hallway on the windowsill, listening to craig's laptop, waiting for sophie and steve to get out of their various club-meetings. sophie met us in this mean lady's classroom at about three, but steve knew where we were and when he got done with his meeting, decided to just go home instead of meet us. and we ended up waiitingggg for him. ugh. but we went to stromboli's and got pizza so it was okay. :D
how are youuuu?

-catyy

dear caty,
im in spanish right now. <--- fail. im actually in computers. i typed spanish because i was thinking spanish because you just said you were in spanish. haha. anywho yeah chanlders pretty lame. and no its not mean for you to hate him cuz... its not your fault hes annoying and stupid. and he texted me yesterday asking if you hated him im like idk ask her and hes like she lost her phone im like go on facebook and he was like can you ask her im like how hes like facebook im like no lol. anywho run on sentence much? lol so yeah and i told him i wanted us to be a cute couple like you and steve and so thats probably where he got the idea of you and steve from. and yes your picture is soooo adorable!! i love it!
and yes i got my charger back. i told my mom it should be on the computer desk but idk. she told me that gma had no idea it was mine lol but whatevs. it is and i have it back.
i had some Japanese candy things in my art class once cuz my art teachers husband went to japan and got some. they were odd tasting but not bad. and the russian things sound good. or at least the cherry one did. i think you should buy me some :D
so you seem really happy. haha its great! everyones better when they're happy. and im glad you are. im happy too. there are a bunch of things and people i dislike in my life but in general im happy. i have friends who care and great stuff.
so my birthday party is on Friday January 22nd. from 5pm-10pm. you need a ride to my house and back. my mom said i cant have a sleepover. maybe you and jess could carpool? lol and i was thinking of inviting steve and danny... idk... would that be weird? cuz i dont know them all that well. idk anywho we will be going bowling at 7pm-9pm and then back to my house. or maybe you, jess, and chandler could carpool! lol idk either way my mom said shes not driving anyone here or there cuz shes driving to bowling and back. so let me know.

-dana

dear dana,
i'm in spanish right now. cuz i'm the only one who knows how to do work, i'm finished so i'm writing this to you.
your lunches sound really awkward, and i'm sorry everyone's so weird >.< so chandler like...im'ed me last night and was like "do you hate me?" and i'm like "no. why?" even though i think he's stupid and annoying so i guess it could be said that i hate him. is that mean?
[sidenote: a kid in my class just yelled at me "stop writin letters." <---that was gonna be in caps, but he can see it. lol.]
anyway, channy's annoying. and he was like "i'm jealous of people in successful relationships" and i was like "like who?" and he's like "like yours." and i'm like "but you've never even seen my relationship." even though, me and steve are cute. just look at my profile picture :D and he was being all lame like "i wish me and dana worked out like that but too late." and i stopped talking to him cuz he's lame.
uhm...i see you got your charger back. that's good. i forgot to tell gma where it was, but she found it easily! i guess she's not getting too old after all :D
so....so...so....oh! this lady at my mommy's work is russian, and she's really annoying but really nice. so she gave my mommy some russian candy that came from the russian store[we have a russian store. we're gonna go to it now that we know about it.] and i was afraid to eat it so i made steve eat it. and there was a cherry chocolate one, and a lemon chocolate bar. they were really...really good. ferrealzys.
so...i'm done now. byeeee!
-catyyy

dear caty,
no i would not like a flashlight for my birthday hahah. im in school right now and today hasnt been that bad. i didnt get like any sleep last night and i have no clue why. im switching my math class soon to be in geometry and trig. im kinda like you. it depends on which class im in if im being social or not. in my english class i am always being social. i love the few people i sit by and i adore my teacher. in classes like global, math, computers, and art i stay quiet the whole time. btw i lied. my art project was not finished. we did mud painting on a cloth and then acrylic painting over that. and we had to wash the acrylic paint out and stuff. so i just washed it out today and wednesday i will see the final piece. its pink :]
lunch was ok today. at first it was awkward for me because they were talking about how much they weighed. it was chandler, DJ, asha, and veronica. they are all like really skinny. so i was just sitting there quiet. then i took chandlers hat and he gave me a dollar to give it back to him hahah. and whenever he reached for it DJ was all "oh you just wanna touch her boobs." oh and chandler was like pretending to jack off and he made this face and DJ was like no guys make that face and im like well he does.... not that id know! and DJ was like woahhh. hahahah but seriously i wouldnt know... ive never seen him jack off. lol so yeahh. lunch was kinda fun todayy.
and i dont want to quit flute. i love playing. just not with the teacher i have. i want mr parisi backkk! anywhooo... yeah i totally would fail at yoyoing. id like kill myself from hitting myself in the face with it so many times. haha. anddd idk lol. byee

-dana

dear dana,

i'm sorry you can't use your phone as a flashlight. would you like a real flashlight for your birthday? and i'm also sorry you hate sleeping at your own house. it's okay though. i hate sleeping at my house too...and yours. :p

we have 11 hours until we have to go back to school, and i'm dreading it. i'm not looking forward to anything. not seeing any teachers, not any classes, not even seeing my little buddy, carlos! plus i have gym which equals major suck. plus school has lunch, and like you, i hate lunch. i'm not a social person during the day. i duck my head in class and do all the goddamn work they hand me. i don't talk till 2 p.m., thank you very much. thank god, i'm dropping lunch next year.

maybe, if you quit playing flute, you can take up a new hobby...like....idk. i'm stumped. what else could you do that's cool instead of play the flute? you could....haha....YOYO! yeah, that'd make you the coolest person on the block.

anyway, i've done nothing since everyone left on friday. i've felt like crap and i've been really freaking tired and now...i have to go to school in the morning! ugh. kill. me. now.

please.

-caty

dear caty,
i would love to participate in your list or whatsits. hmmm... i dont know anything we should do yet thoughh. ill think of something. im sorry my letter meant nothing to you! i had like nothing to say because as you said i just saw you!
my phone is dead now because i left my charger at your house. i thought i could live without it but i just cant. but not because i cant text people! last night i was up until 2am and i was going upstairs and it was sooo dark i couldnt see anything! normally if i had my phone id use it as a light to see where i was going. plus im afraid of the dark. like no joke. lol so my phone would have been useful. also this morning i woke up and didnt have my phone to tell me the time. i always need to know what time it is. and so when i went downstairs and actually saw the time it was 1:30pm! which means i slept for way longer then planned. and this is why i need my phone.
ive realized that i like sleeping at other places rather than my own house. if i could i would spend the night at peoples houses every night. the only time id rather be home is if i was sick or on my period and have cramps or something. for the past 3 nights i havnt slept at my house. first i was at your house, then zoes, and now my dads. but tonight i will sleep in my own bed because i have school in the morning.
i do not want to go back to school. sadly the only things i miss are a few of my teachers. i dont miss any of the kids or the work. like my english teacher... the one im going to adopt haha yeah i miss his funny corny jokes that i laugh at while nobody else is listening. and my global teacher who isnt afraid to curse or make fun of students. and my art teacher who is just awesome. and i finished an art project before break and im excited to see what it looks like! because it was wet from paint when i finished. i think my least favorite class is lunch. which is really sad. normally people love lunch. and i went from a lunch where i sat with only aracelis to a lunch where i sat with a bunch of people. and i wish i could go back to sitting with just aracelis. another thing which really pisses me off is that i absolutely hate band this year. the kids and the teacher just suck. it makes me sad because i really loved band last year and now i kinda want to quit. but i dont want to because me playing the flute makes my dad proud of me. and ive quit so many things when i was younger and i dont want to quit another thing.
anywho... im really in the mood to go run outside and make a snow man! but its getting a little dark and im not sure when dindin is gonna be ready or when im going to go home. i think i may just have to though lol. ahh neverminddd. my daddy said its not packable snow. so it wouldnt work :[ that makes me sad.
anywhooo this is kinda a long letter lol. i think ill stop now. byee!

-dana

p.s. my last letter fails because it says december 13th but i totally wrote it december 31st. or januaru 1st. im not suree.